HURTING

I know we are not all meant to be happy, all the time, but I think I come as some sort of an off cut, something that went wrong in the process. It seems like whenever I am having a good day, and I am feeling happy not only with those around me or my relationship but within myself, someone or something always has to ruin that. It is rare that i ever feel happy with myself, and when the chance ever arises, it is unfairly taken away from my by someone who doesn't deserve my happiness or in this case my unhappiness. I hate the fact that being with you means I automatically have to be with your friends, your friends that ignore me, patronize me, gang up on me, bitch to me, and even more so try and make me break up with you by destroying my trust i have for you, Im sorry but I cannot take a package deal, I have enough to handle as it is and today was the final straw, I cannot stand someone I dont even know saying something like they did, it was so unfair and it hurt so much, and I dont think I will ever be okay about anything again. It made me question our love, relationship and what trust I have left, it made me hurt, hurt so fucking bad. Im sorry, but I do not like any of your friends, and I hope they rot in hell.