in reality

I think I am too selfish.
I never seem to be satisfied with anything or anyone. People give and give and give and I never seem to appreciate it, what is it that I want? and what is it that stops me from appreciating every single person in my life and what they mean and they significance they hold. Ive been told that too much of the time i am too wrapped up in my own mind to notice or do anything about anyone else around me, but perhaps this is true, and if it is, then please take note and then dont bother me about it again. If i am a selfish and self-enthralled person, then so be it, I have problems just like you do, only perhaps I just dont deal with them as well as you do. I have also been told I am a "five minutes of happiness" kind of girl, which be that as it may, enjoy that five minutes or piss off, dont expect anymore and dont complain about an anti climax either. Also I would like to point out that no one can say how pathetic and self obsessed someone else is by writing a blog like this, because I cant stress it enough that this is YOUR blog to say what YOU want to say, so its not attention seeking or victimizing at all.
good riddance.

anticipation

i cant wait

possibilities

i cried..

hmm... feeling happy again

Work Expirence

two days down, eight more to go. have definately established my short temper and low tollerance for infants.

help im alive

and i feel like im living in a world where everyone is blind....

Hugging a Wall

Apparently I am devoid of feelings...

so...

some say people never change. some say people should never change. and some say no body ever changes, no matter how hard they try to convince themselves other wise.
Today you made me a promise, and quite often promises are not something that are upheld for long periods of time, or remembered for that matter. It was a big risk to make the promise you did today, and my happiness faltered for quite some time, I do not want to believe so to speak in this promise, because I do not want to be let down, which in most cases happen because no one can ever seem to keep a 'promise'. My only hopes are that you can stick to that promise for both our sakes. I hope things will be different. I hope people can change. But remember, you always have a choice in life, its just the sad mother fuckers that choose to believe otherwise.

this time maybe i'll be bulletproof

I would sail my ship as far as I could, but my anchors are far too heavy.

Where is my mind?