blood

is blood really what binds you? does blood define your relationship and love for your biological relatives? for your mother or father, sister or brother? I beg to differ. Blood has nothing to do with likeness, with love, with family or with responsibility. Blood simply means sharing the same strands of DNA, no more no less. I was talking with my mom tonight out at dinner and I could help but let out all my pent up feelings to her, and let it all gush out. So I told her the sadness i feel everyday inside of me, the absolute pain I feel to my core, and this was her answer "You are grieving maddy, you are grieving for the family you lost, for what once was, and for what will never be", she has to be the smartest woman in the whole wide world, she is my solid, impenetrable rock, my dear beautiful mother. And that is what is right, I am grieving for the father I will never have, not because he is dead or in jail, but because he has never been in my life and because at this rate he never really will be. This is the truth, no matter how much help I get, no matter how many years go by, I will always be "grieving for the family I have lost".