Happy?

I've been thinking a lot about happiness, and its meaning and how long I have now been on my quest to be 'happy', which all got me thinking; Maybe happiness cannot be looked for or found, maybe happiness relies truly in a moment of such a strong serge of unexpected life, that you cant help but throw your hands in the air and laugh. Maybe happiness is just a moment in time, a figure of speech or a memory. Coming from the wise old words of a sixteen year old I cant help but mention I feel a little hypocritical writing this, I have neither traveled the world and discovered myself nor been through any drastic changes in my life, so sitting here writing about happiness does rather dampen my spirits. I do not think that I have lived a worse or better life than anyone else, I simply believe that I have just been through maybe some similar things and some very different things, but instead of crapping on about how shit I have it or how unhappy I am, I would prefer to focus on the fact that sure, I've been through some shit things, and when I say that no I dont mean my GHD broke or my boyfriend broke up with me, I mean some shit things, but I am not going to sit here writing about them, they are for me to dwell on and keep private. Anyway, back to the point, even though I have been through some unfortunate events, I am still quite positive about life, I am really trying to be happy, there is that word again "happy" is anyone ever TRULY happy? I look at my mom, the most beautiful woman in the world, so full of life, wisdom, and positivity, yet through all this she is not 100% happy, she has her own demons. I look at my brother, who never lets anything get to him, he is always smiling laughing and enjoying life, but he is never 100% happy, he still has his own demons. And so I've been thinking, perhaps happiness is possible, perhaps it is just one moment you unexpectedly find yourself in, and perhaps our own demons will inevitably get in the way of our happiness, all I know is I am going to continue to seek this 'happiness' out, because at the end of the day why not be happy?

A wise woman once said "dont let the past live in the present" I am going to live by that from now on.