sometimes

sometimes I feel sad, and sometimes I know why, sometimes I dont. Sometimes I would like to tell you why I feel sad, and have an answer ready for you, and sometimes I would like to know the answer myself, in order to understand why I have such unease. Sometimes when you ask me questions I would really like to be able to tell you the answer, and it frustrates me when I dont know it myself. I want to be able to give you all the world, and give all of you the best parts of me and the parts you deserve. But sometimes I am sad, sometimes I feel angry and I push you away. Im sorry, Im sorry I get sad, and im sorry I dont know the answer as to why.

People spend their whole lives looking for answers. Answers about ghosts, aliens, love, happiness and peace. And I believe we will all spend our lives looking for that one thing we our selves as individuals are searching for. Right now I know that I am looking for answers about myself, not just so I am able to communicate to you better, But so I would have a better understand and love for myself.

But until then I will keep looking, because sometimes we get lucky...